Boxing Day Craze

I slept at 7am last night and woke up at 10.30 and went to the city centre for the boxing day sale. Started the amazing day by getting some money out of the atm first. lol. Then headed towards forever21,Ann Summers,One republic,H&M,Select,Next and ofcourse Primark. I finally found the wine red jacket I have been searching for to gift my mom. She is now in my homeland where I am flying to on 2nd Jan. Got myself wine red pants and other stuff,specially some rings and a very pretty necklace. Im gna attend wedding parties so I deserve to buy some nice stuff for myself. The jackets I got from H&M fit perfectly.

I packed my bag. It is 25 kgs already. and I didnt put in my old desi clothes yet. The ones I dont wear will be donated to the poor people struggling in the winter. 

Off-track

The year is almost over. I have finished my third semester. Three more semesters to go. Exams didnt go as well as I thought. Anyways that is not something that upsets me anymore. I have kinda gotten used to it lol. Nevertheless, Life has been going just fine. Cant say that I have been feeling that fantastic or fabulous... Its maybe because of the fact that I have been too lazy these days. When I look around I see so many motivated people around me. I get joyful just by looking at it.

There is one thing that I am looking forward to very eagerly. That is my best friend's wedding. 

Gingerbread

I just opened a twitter account today. Follow me there if you want to!
https://twitter.com/RahNikita

At the moment I am at Uni. Just finished my Games and Strategies Seminar. I am so hungry. I have been eating the same old biryani for two days. Last night I went for a late night movie : Jab Tak Hai Jaan. The movie was good except for the fact that it was pretty lengthy thats all.

Its raining, its pouring, the nightsky is falling...

http://www.brolliesgalore.co.uk

Look at these beautiful Umbrellas! I would love to buy these two. Oh they are gorgeous!  huh? I remember my cousin walking in the city centre in Sweden, having a gorgeous black umbrella. Since then, I have always wanted to buy one beautiful umbrella. It rains so much in London, a nice umbrella would be an excellent buy!

Check out the website for a huge collection of various unique umbrellas!

Loreal Shampoo and Conditioner and my favourite Strawberry body scrub :D Taking em with me!

And books ofcourse.. I need to prepare myself for the end of term tests...

Be productive!

Edinburgh, Scotland, UK

I have been on bed the whole day yesterday. Doing Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I thought about going to University and study. Then I thought about studying. Then I thought about cleaning my room. Then I thought about sorting my clothes. Then I thought about getting my suitcase back from storage. Then I thought about getting a hair mask. NOTHING DONE. All I did was watching Pretty Little liars all day long. I hate not doing what I thought of doing. I feel useless and I hate that feeling. Laziness has conquered me I must confess. I woke up after a 10hour sleep and still can't get up from bed. I have had my lunch and am supposed to go for a hot shower and then head out to University.

Just one more Episode.. then I must get up. I MUST. OH

This Weekend - Edinburgh!

I have been to : Bristol, Brighton, Birmingham, London and Manchester and am planning on visiting atleast 10 more cities before I graduate.

Cant wait to buy this!

International love

For some reason I have been feeling a lot stupid and useless lately, during the times I am absolutely bored. So I thought about learning Mandarin and Arabic. I have no hurry so I can learn a bit whenever I am free. Back in High School, I did a course on Spanish and I so hoped I could continue but I didnt have time. Spanish is something I want to pick up on later. Not now. Im highly fascinated by Mandarin at the moment.

Anyways. My days have been going pretty okay. Reading week starts from Saturday and I have so much to catch up on. Somehow Im in love with Statistics now all of a sudden, maybe because I finally understood what it is all about. Gosh.

Have been watching Pretty Little liars, Anger Management, New Girl, Modern family and Gossip Girl.

The Beef Nachos I made last Saturday was YUMMY! Best

I really need to buy one of these. Carrying the big vacuum cleaner all the way to third floor is not possible and it is too heavy as well... I need to find even a cheaper handheld vacuum Cleaner. AMAZON YOU ARE AMAZING!

Bollywood Tears

I look as if someone has beaten me up. lol

Yesterday I was supposed to go to an university event of a society that I recently joined. My friends didnt go so I thought of not going. Then suddenly my other friend called me to meet them and watch the Durga pooja festival. It was nice. I have never been to a Durga Pooja before.

Anyways Eid is tomorrow and I bought a new dress and bangles. I cant wait to wear them tomorrow.

Otherwise life is going good. I just finished watching Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham and I cried once again. haha. Stupid me.

It was a mouse!

There is hair everywhere. I do not know what happened to me but I am getting a huge amount of hair fall. I find hair on the bed, on clothes, in the bathroom, on plates, on books EVERYWHERE! It is so irritating. I am definitely going for a haircut tomorrow and then attend some university events regarding applications for internships and also go to a society event in the evening with my friend. I left my Dslr at my friend's place or else I could have taken plenty of pictures. I dont even remember the last time using it!

Anyways, lots of friends around me are getting married. So cute.

Hallo London

Im finally Back to London.
I was sad the first day...
Now I've adjusted and am really excited to join University again...
Second year..Lots of studies..

Nothingness

Sketch by Tonia Bonnell

I'm sitting here in my bedroom... In the middle of my bed and waiting for someone to come and talk to me. No sound except for my noisy old Laptop can be heard. It is an annoying sound. Six more days and then I'm flying back. Somehow I'm not liking it here anymore. I want to go home. It has been four months now. I dont know what I am waiting for. Why is there a countdown? A countdown to what? A merrier future?

Messed up?

I am not liking my hair style, not my clothing, not the food I'm eating, not the fact that Im on bed most of the day... Im just not liking it nor am I getting the interest towards doing something great that would make me satisfied or joyful for the day. Somehow I am eagerly waiting to take the next Ryanair flight to London and join University as soon as possible again and finally get to use the iPad that has been sleeping on my desk for the past 2 weeks! I want to feel fresh, be able to comb my hair atleast! I am tired of the tangles! God!

Importance of Rings

What's the importance of engagement rings? Well, Im scared of the whole idea of marriage but I do fancy a thick pink engagement ring like the ones above! Hahahaha.I have always loved fat rings and my recent wanting is a sapphire ring with diamonds on the side... 

I had a dream

I had a dream.

I had a dream about meeting you. I came to ---- and somehow I was was walking through an Industrial area and was trying to hide one bag of mine in a fine architectural building. As I was walking through the maze like corridors, I saw light and assumed that it was afternoon as the sun was up in the sky, giving out its brightest shine ever. I walked out when I saw a man passing by, with a different hairstyle, I turned around and saw it to be you, wearing a blue tshirt and brown pants.

You turned and looked at me with a sarcastic smile. Somehow I knew that you didn't feel comfortable. You invited me home and as we walked, you didn't even look at me once. We entered a two bedroom house. I saw another roommate of yours with his dad. He looked like Uzair Jaswal the singer, wearing a red t shirt.

Somehow you showed no interest

I felt really heardbroken but then told myself that its okay. This is how things were supposed to turn out. Its me who broke everything into pieces for a better future, for both of us. And we will never be the same again. Cant be the same again. Its best if I let it go..

I got up, walked through the door. Came back and saw you laying on bed... then you went to the bathroom...came back and laid on the bed again.. And after watching all that, I walked out of your house with tears rolling down my cheeks...

NOTE: Most parts of the dream is unrealistic because it does not resemble occurrences in my personal life. I believe that dreams are a collection of thoughts, rooting from our conscious and subconscious mind. Yesterday was a heavy day for me and I was thinking about life, relationships and expectations.

I must say that the dream felt exhausting as it felt so realistic. Moreover, I haven't been dreaming for the past whole month, so it feels kinda different. The gloomy weather doesn't help, it just makes me more thoughtful.

Lets talk Fashion

Products from Accessorize

Kick Boxing. Exercising. University. Friends. One more way of staying busy and boost my self confidence is to get myself into fashion . I never really cared about my own style. It was casual and then went onward to being Gothic for a couple of years and then now its just all cute- pink stuff and hello kitty that is! I used to love it when I dressed up, and to get compliments from others. But I'm just too lazy about that. So I thought about getting rid of that laziness, go shopping and be proud of myself!  I thought about indulging myself into exploring different products and clothing styles that I haven't thought of before. Recently I have been into rings and I got nine of them from Stockholm - a shop called Six where lots of them were on discount. Pretty cheap I must say! Now I'm aiming towards buying good autumn clothing. 

Circumstances

I dont need to be in Bangladesh to be Happy. I dont need to be in Sweden to be happy. Nor do I need to be in UK to be happy. I just need to be happy with myself, regardless of the the people and place Im with or am in.

Dear Birmingham,

Birmingham City Center, United Kingdom

It was a bright day. Early Autumn. Ryanair lines to London. Coach from London Stansted to Birmingham. 3 hours of coach travel seemed a lot back in 2010. I still remember the cab ride back to my student accommodation, leaving my mom back at a hotel, as she had a flight to catch back to Stockholm. She didnt cry nor did I with the thought that we will meet soon again.That Night I met a lot of new people and lived in a country where I knew no one.I wasnt scared. Somehow I felt adventurous. That curiosity led me into doing so many things. Fortunately, I have developed so many beautiful memories in Birmingham starting 2010 to 2011. You see the place people are sitting on, infront of the church? I have been there during so many late evenings and afternoons, just staring at the church. At night I used to get scared thinking about the existence of haunted people.

I can keep talking about Birmingham. I used to go back there and meet old friends. But I guess I wont be doing that anymore. Because a part of me is dead now. I'm doing just fine in London... Atleast thats what I think I should feel...

Father Figure

"One Father is more than a hundred School Masters"

 How much does a father figure matter? Do women look at their own relationships and shape their lives in comparison to how they see their fathers behave in the family? Do women choose a man in their lives in comparison to their fathers? A better man or a man like their father? Is it true? I heard a saying somewhere that a man ends up marrying a woman like his own mother. How does it work for women then? How do we actually know if what we are doing is right? Is there an absolute right or wrong deed? Isnt everything relative in terms of situation and opinion?

Ill be fine

Taken on 29th August,2012.

How easy is it to stop yourself from doing a certain unacceptable act of behavior, that you think is bad for yourself? Like looking at old photographs or read old MSN logs of people you dont want to remember in life. How easy is it to think only of the good sides of a personality and keep neglecting the negativity until it slaps you right on the face? Sometimes we just want to think of the good things and perish the moment. Why do we get so frustrated when something bad happens in our lives? Its natural, if there are ups, then there are downs. But when we spend some really happy moments in life - when we get to touch the realm of true happiness, it is very sad when it is all taken away from us. At one instant. At one go.

Diverse Paths

Photograph Clicked in Stockholm Sweden, 5:25am, 29th August,2012

“We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere.” ― Tim McGraw

Alarm rang. Phone rang. 5.08am. My eye brows puckered with a sudden burst of laughter when I heard my friend sing an old Bollywood song about sunrise on the phone. I got up and changed my clothes. Brushed my hair,put maroon lipstick on my dry lips, wore a long sweater and got out with my camera with the keys jingling in my back pocket.I walked straight up, in the early cloudy morning and looked up my watch before deciding which way to turn. Left or Right. I stood at the junction, giggling with sheer delight. The smile came up naturally because I knew which road to take. Even though I could capture a better picturesque moment of the beautiful sky if I walked towards the right end which had an open field there, I chose to walk towards the left side. The left road which took me deeper into the forest with trees, with twigs lying on the ground with plenty of snails walking here and there. It was way more challenging to get a glimpse of the sunshine through the thick clouds floating on the sky above the water.

Super Duper Memories

"Good memories are painful to keep"

- Me 

          At the very moment of a specific situation, when we enjoy or perish doing something, we usually don't think of  "how-it-would-be-to-think-about-it-in-the-future". In my case, sometimes when I'm enjoying a moment, I do start getting paranoid and start thinking of how it would feel like to miss that specific happening in the future. And I get this thought at the very moment when I start feeling special in a specific happening or occurrence. And No, it doesn't ruin my present. I like thinking like this. Its not complicated at all.

I remember times when I was quiet while everyone else was enjoying. That moment of silence lasted for some seconds, yet brought many thoughts in my mind. I thought "What can I do to preserve this moment? What can I do to make it more memorable?". I start clicking pictures or taking videos.Usually people take pictures or make videos just like that, at the heat of the moment. But I get specific thoughts of how I want to remember a specific situation in the future. This behavior of mine has generated due to several reasons- mostly connected to the ways I used to write my diary.

I've been writing a diary for ten years now and when I read the same material again and again, I get to understand so many things - ways I used to think, Ways I wanted to remember a specific event or situation. Its unfair because if I just write the bad stuff, after ten years all Ill clearly remember will be the negativity of that person or occurrence.

Therefore I have adapted new ways to capturing memories. Some good memories are too painful to keep, so I thought of keeping no trail behind those events...

Its kinda good that I can be so forgetful at times.

Storm Cloud

Sometimes I feel like running away. To somewhere scary. Somewhere where it is raining with huge storm clouds. I want to face the thunder and see if the lightning strikes the ground harder than the emotions striking my mind. I want to face the furious wind and see if I can hold myself against it. I want to test my strength, cry out my sorrows in the rain. And just stand in water reaching my knees. Feel the intensity of the cold weather...and understand the depth of my own strengths and weaknesses. Yet not ask for help. If I drown, Ill drown happily. If I survive the storm, then Ill be the person I never thought I could be. A hell of a strong person! Unbreakable!