Scoliosis

Dear Readers,

I have been feeling really low since the last month. Maybe it is because of the doctoral results and tests. Now a days I am visiting a physiotherapist as I was given a referral by the orthopedist. Apparently,there exists some kind of an irregularity with my Spine which is causing severe back pain and other connecting problems. Basically, my anatomy is twisted, abnormal you may say.

Mentally, I have been thoughtful regarding my physical health and my weaknesses. My breathing difficulty is due to the tightened muscles around my rib cage which in turn is caused by my the curved spine. I am not depressed or sad. It is just that I hate being told that I am weak. Maybe it is my ego working. Tomorrow my parents are going to order orthopedic supplements for my left foot as my left leg is an inch shorter than my right due to my rotated hip bone.

Besides having hypothyroidism, coping with such muscle aches is a big hassle in my everyday life. When difficulties arise regarding trivial daily activities, that is when I feel the worst. Having hardship bending and sitting too long during lectures is just a part of the whole puzzle.

I am not going to blame my hormonal issues for my weight gain, but will blame myself for not being healthy and taking care of myself. I should have started this a long time ago!

However, I know that it is never too late. I have started exercising and will soon start with a fitness and diet plan when I join my University again.

Besides my health routine, I will also be starting my skin and hair routine as I have been off-track for too long now. My confidence have lowered and I hate being the way I am now. I know that I can make it.

This is the start of a new journey in my life - a journey to fitness and well being.

Cosmetic Collection

I always forget what i want to buy! Therefore I made a list to remind myself when I go out shopping. I definitely want to buy the eye, lash and NAKED basics from Urban Decay. Must have!

Supplements

 Have to order some of these once I start my workout routine in UK. Raspberry Ketones Powder is a must!

Tooo Early

I am flying on the 13th of September. Oh its a month away! I know! But I started packing already so that I get an approximate idea of the luggage weight beforehand. I dont want to make the mistake of buying too many things and not be able to take them all with me! Today I bought three pairs of shoes, a jacket and a sweater. Happy me! The jacket is gorgeous! Btw, my legs are killing me, so I skipped the gym today :/ Bad bad, very bad!

Desi Collection

Omg I just checked out the online store called saree bazaar and they have got amazing sarees! I definitely want to buy some of them. I can not wait to order and send some to mom as a surprise gift :D

Craving..

I was supposed to go the gym today but didnt. Oh its 11.35pm and it is raining. Beautiful. Love midnight rain <3

SheLikes ILike

I have been searching some online stores and found this store called Shelikes. They dont have a collection as big as Asos but I really like these pieces of clothing. Oh I want all these for Autumn! I need to order some once I reach London <3 From Sweden, I guess I do a bit more shopping from New Yorker - they've got some really cute sweatshirts that I want :)

Hyderabadi biryani

I have been thinking about making this for the past two days. Finally made it tonight and it turned out to be awesome! Loved the flavors and the aroma of the mint leaves and garam masala. Besides the biryani, I also made Malai Kofta Curry which turned out to be delicious as well.

Eid Mubarak Everyone!

Early preparation!

Source: River Island.

Autumn starts around mid September, that's the time when my university starts again- third year, hell yah! These are a couple of things I want to buy for myself from River Island. Last year, I hardly did any shopping from this awesome store! Oh Oh Oh 5 more weeks in Sweden. Enough of shopping done! I dont even think I can carry everything back to London :P

Neon!

In love with his new album. Oh Gosh.

The sun it out!

Oh God, it has been so hot these days. Firstly it makes me lazy and secondly the sunshine gives me such a bad headache every time I go out. Oh my God. Today when I went out grocery shopping with my mother, my head spun so badly, I just stood in the middle of the road for a while till i regained my strength or balance, you may say. Anyways, almost two months have passed already in Stockholm. Wow time flies so quickly! I thought I would get a job, I didnt. I thought Ill finish my Gmat studies, I didnt. What did I do? Laze around like mad. Haha. Oh Gosh, I have totally forgotten about blogging since I started using instagram so much. Its easier. Dont feel like re-posting the same pictures here. 

Ombre!

Yes finally I got my hair coloured the way I wanted! This was a birthday gift from my mother. As in, she paid for this :P I am really happy with the outcome. My new specs and new hair colour goes hand in hand together and the whole "look" I have been after, is finally accomplished!

Stop eating Rice

One food I can not avoid is Rice. In our Bengali culture, rice is a big part of our diet. I have no clue on how to stop eating rice on a regular basis, in order to get a slimmer waistline. I am exercising, having green tea extract and what not to enhance my fat metabolism and the only thing left to do is to change my diet.

Without having atleast a handful of rice, I do not get the satisfaction of being full. It sucks yes I know! From tomorrow I am going to actually change my diet. I am taking this as a challenge. Got nothing else to do this summer :P

A change of style

I thought about spending a productive summer in Sweden this time. So I got myself 5 books from Amazon and have also applied for summer courses like Global Ethics and Global Economy in Stockholm and Uppsala. Moreover, I thought of trying out different colours of clothing this summer as well. I am not the type to go with the fashion flow. I am more of a person who likes to wear stuff that looks good on me. Being a pink maniac, I dared myself to buy two red bags this year - One for an usual outing and one for University/Travelling. Ill probably carry the big red bag with me during my flight. I dared myself to buy white clothes as well - a colour I always avoided. Throughout my teenage life, I wore really dark colours.

Anyways. After the Micro II exam tomorrow, I've got a month holiday for exam preparations. Oh I forgot to mention that I have had a really bad fever for the last few days. I actually sat on a stool and cried for a while, missing my mom. Haha. 

Frenetic pace of activity

I have been sleeping/laying down watching Everybody loves Raymond and the Hills all day long. Yesterday looked pretty much the same. I have been eating too many Kopiko candies and my breath smells of coffee, no matter how many times Im brushing my teeth throughout the day. The weather is pretty nice today. I didnt have to wear layers of sweaters when i went out to get some Tamil Biryani for myself. Im so sick and tired of eating the same food for the last 1 week. I can not be bothered to cook. I tried doing the laundry today but the machine was busy. Now I can't be asked to do it. Anyways. Tonight I have to start with the Econometrics revision so that I dont become a sleepless lunatic tomorrow before the exam. By the way, I got a 80 in the Mircroeconomics exam finally! I am so happy. The Macroeconomics exams went shit anyways. I have to prioritize the different modules properly this easter holiday before the finals.

Anyways, Have a nice day everyone!

Havre Gryn

Did you know that every time I came back from Sweden to UK, I carried with me 1 kg of Oat Meal? And every time I had to leave it behind me because of my overweight luggage. One time, I had to throw it at the airport because my luggage was exactly 1 kg overweight. Damn Oats!

Anyways, after almost 2.5 years of living in UK, I finally researched and found out that there is a Swedish store here in London! It is located near March Arch station. You can not imagine how happy I got by seeing the availability of all my favourite Swedish products! I found lingonberry jam from LidL but it is not as tasty as the original Swedish one. I love it on toast, Oat meal and Pancakes  sometimes over Vanilla Ice Cream too. YUM!

Insomnia

I didnt sleep at all last night. I had to study for the exam and I was having a hard time remembering all the formulas. I dont know what is gonna happen to me in the final exams. I went to the library at 8am today and came back home at 5pm. My taste buds have gone crazy...whatever I eat feels disgusting. I tried eating a fish pie tonight. However it didnt taste as good as i thought. Bleugh. My uncle came to London and im going spend my time with him tomorrow and study later when i come back home.

Come closer...

New Sainsburys opened. Didnt even notice. Now I dont need to go to Budgens everytime. Yaaay!

Puff Puff

I eat all sorts of random stuff when I am alone. I love the peachy water. It smells good and it tastes good. I prefer this over all kinds of soda. Lucozade is disgusting. Finally found the coffee candies which I had last in Bangladesh. Looooong time ago. The honey puffs used to be my favourite when I was a teenager back home in Sweden. Oh. I didnt even buy dinner.

A Book

A Book. I have been trying to read books. Why trying? I have been trying because I hardly read any books. There are so many things that you can learn and it is a good way of spending your free-time - times when you are absolutely bored. I tried reading magazines as well. All of them just get piled up on my table. Today I paid for the overdue book I had with me, borrowed from my University library. I didn't even read it.

I keep thinking of the person I was and the person I want to be and the person I am right now. It is good to change for the better right? Sometimes you need a good influence in your life. There is no one to tell me what to do here. When I was in Sweden with my Parents, mom used to help me and encourage me into doing a lot of stuff. Maybe that is one reason I am missing Sweden so much these days. I miss her.

I know for sure that I do not want to be in London after I am done with my undergraduate course. I would like a change. A change which will give me a fresh start. Sometimes I get tensed too much, but then I just calm down. I have gained so much of patience, wow I am proud of myself.

Anyways, got the exam on Friday and I have actually studied properly this time. I am going to spend my whole day revising tomorrow. I should learn to stick to my daily goals, instead of following my stupid spontaneous plans and ideas. Its stupid. 

Arabic Tea

Oh I had the yummiest Cheese Cake tonight. Chilling with friends and having Arabic Tea. oh i just remembered- gotta start revising Capital Markets and Econometrics for the tests coming up. Ohhhhh

Stuffed Pastaaaa

I made stuffed pasta and enchiladas for my friends. It turned out to be yummmmm. A bit too cheesy for me so I couldnt eat much.

Ups and Downs

I have been really down. Not because of all the rejections I have been getting regarding all the internship applications but because of my mood lately. The feeling of being useless have been haunting me the past few days. The fact that all of these feelings are just a part of a phase in my life, isnt making me feel any better. Exams are coming up this May and the stress is slowly developing. There is only a year left of University and yet nothing exciting have happened - Things that I wanted to do by this age. Perhaps I am expecting too much of myself. That is certainly not good as I should be totally happy and feel lucky of what I have. I just hope that this so called *phase* ends soon because it is driving me nuts...

L'Oreal Wild Ombres

I want to immediately go and buy this new hair colour and apply it on my hair. I am however waiting for the irritating weather to end and let the spring come and eventually summer. Lol. I dont know why I am blogging now, Im supposed to study Macroeconomics for the exam tomorrow. I am just too exhausted from all the revision for today's test - slept for like only 2 hours. I really need to go to bed right now. Goodnight folks!

By the way, I gave my numerical exam for an internship position today and yes I joined the gym! Next week is my reading week! yay! No university for the next 10days. Happy me.

Cosmopolitan

I was really bored at home today with no mood for studying. So I spent 2 hours just roaming the streets and buying random stuff for myself to brighten up my mood. I have been wanting some new stuff for my hair, so I thought about trying out these new products and see how it goes. I finally got a magazine for myself. Hope to ACTUALLY read it. lol

New Arrivals

I went out with friends and spent most of the time at Waterstones. Got myself a new ring and flowers. I kept the rose and the big flowers and threw these weird looking ones with a cup in the middle. These are the kind of flowers I'm scared of!

Meet and Greet

My friend came from Sweden to London for a University interview and we had a long gossip about several things. It was fun! Then later I got a reply for the designer and account managing position. I probably have an interview next week. Sounds exciting! I have a lot and lot of work coming up regarding the Assistant scheme at Uni and preparations for my exams coming up in 2 weeks. Eeee!

2013 Internship

I have been applying to so many Finance and Banking related Internships since November and have failed to even get a telephone interview! I gave one psychometric test and it was really difficult. Anyways, this year I applied for PR internships in the fashion business as well as some Banking Internships in Stockholm as well. Lets see what happens. If I do not get any reply by April, I guess Ill just go for Summer School.

Life has been too boring these days. I have been eating junk food a lot which I am not proud of. I am studying more than I did last year. I went to University today to just sit in the computer lab and study. I did that for a good 2 hours.

The only good news that I have gotten since a year is the Research Assistant Scheme I got into. I'm so glad to be able to work with one of the famous Professors at University.

I just got to know that Snooki had a kid named Lorenzo. Wow. Anyways. I have washed my towels and bedsheets and have finally started to use my face wash. Cleaner Me!